DESIRE // LENT D::30
[ READING :: Mark 4:1-20 ]
“Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful.”
Not every desire is of the Holy Spirit, even if it seems to a person right and good.
It is difficult to judge truly whether a good spirit or an evil one drive you to desire this or that; or whether by your own spirit you are moved thereto.
Many have been deceived in the end, who at first seemed to be led on by a good spirit.
Therefore whatever occurs to the mind as desirable, must always be desired and prayed for in the fear fo God, and with humility of heart; and most of all you must commit the whole matter to me, with special resignation of yourself, and you must say;
“O Lord, you know what is best for us, let this or that be done, as you will.
“Give what you will, and how much you will, and when you will.
“Deal with me as you think good, and as best pleases you, and is most for your honor.
“Set me where you will, and deal with me in all things just as you will.
“I am in your hands: turn me around and turn me back again, which way so ever you please.
“Behold, i am your servant, prepared for all things, for i desire not to live for myself, but for you; and oh that i could dot it worthily and perfectly!”
—From The Imitation of Christ by Thomas a Kempis
(this selection is taken from the chapter entitled In Everything Which We Desire, how we Ought to Stand Affected, and What We Ought to Say. Some language slightly translated for the modern reader.)
? What desires sidetrack you and choke out the good that God has stirred in your soul ?